Somewhere near the 51st constellation, year 2010 – I have to declare I have today been crushed by loneliness. Fortunately I had a conversation about deep considerations over life and the good reasons to be alive and be still working out good ways to see happiness through a lens of weaknesses and hopes!
I wrote something about “solitude vs. loneliness” in June 19th, 2009. I wrote and I meant it accordingly to my state of spirit by then. The nice thing of this life is that the state of spirit is variable, as long that is not that much variable and inexpectable as woman’s humor! What is life without a bit of salt & pepper?
Between loneliness and solitude there is a barrier called stability. What a human being desires most is definitely one thing called stability. I would call it “comfort” instead. Nevertheless, stability is something which is now called a thing from the past cause world, I mean generally speaking, is moving all the time and not necessarily clockwise. We are now, world wide, closer to the American way of life: a constant fight for survival or, instead and preferably, for the ultimate state of a luxurious life with lots of permanent pleasure and leisure.
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Repress and restrain
Steal the pressure and the pain
Wash the blood off your hands
This time she won’t understand
Change in the air
They’ll hide everywhere
No one knows who’s in control
You’re working so hard
And you’re never in charge
Your death creates success
Rebuild and suppress
Change in the air
And they’ll hide everywhere
And no one knows who’s in control
Change in the air
And they’ll hide everywhere
No one knows who’s in control
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Reprime e controla.
Suprime a pressão e a dor.
Lava o sangue das tuas mãos.
Desta vez ninguem vai entender.
Mudanças a acontecer.
Eles se esconderão algures.
Ninguem sabe quem controla.
Trabalhas tão arduamente,
mas nunca estás por cima.
A tua morte gera sucesso,
reconstrói e dissimula.
Mudanças a acontecer.
Eles se esconderão algures.
Ninguem sabe quem controla.
Mudanças a acontecer.
Eles se esconderão algures.
Ninguem sabe quem controla.
Ruled By Secrecy, in Absolution (album), © 2009
Free translation to Portuguese by The Wanderer
Today is my independence day, no matter what that can mean for every reader of this post. Ms. PA was “present” to make it even more intensive(1). Mr. RGAL wondered why was I today having lunch on my own. Deep thoughts, fluid decisions. I think fast and write easy. I do love things turning my life to an intensive experience. I usually try to make other’s experiences intensive enough. Sometimes I succeed. Sometimes not. Yet, I keep trying…
New mind, new way. I hope. I shall not surrender. May the gods be with me, Ms. PA and Mr. RGAL…(2)
- Have you guys already found out who Ms. Pa is? I guess not… ↩
- These characters are real and not necessarily usual readers of this blog. The latter deserves my respect since he called this blog my self-psychotherapy tool. The first, deserves my respect since she called this blog the result of something I should never have told her. Despite the charm of a black&white view, a colored life it is much more preferred. ↩
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Tenho certeza que esta conquista da liberdade trará muitas alegrias e sucessos. Espero um dia destes também ter coragem e saltar para o mundo!
Ambos sabemos que não vai ser tudo colorido, mas trabalhar, gerir e fazer obra em equipa nunca lhe meteu medo e sempre foi um professor excelente, porque ensina, apoia, protege e felicita quando o aprendiz já consegue fazê-lo sozinho (ou melhor). Um dia perguntava se teria gostado de ter sido aprendiz directo e oficial, sem dúvida que sim, até porque eu fui e sou ainda. E espero um dia receber o Seu parabéns!
Vou ter saudades das nossas conversas, das visões e decisões. Até ao próximo encontro, post, telefonema ou mesmo pensamento… Sim porque o Deus está connosco!
Dois sentimentos estão dentro de mim: alegria e tristeza.
Alegria por teres encontrado o dia da tua independência. Vivemos demasiado presos aos nossos padrões e hábitos, adormecemos à sombra da bananeira. Quando alguém agarra a sua independência fico sempre feliz.
Tristeza por não ter tido despedida da tua parte nem o tal almoço a três que te pedi. Já estou a ver a minha vida a andar para trás neste último aspecto.
Por fim, existem pessoas com quem vale a pena conversar. Obrigado por isso.